Letter 2:Sheri

Dear Sheri,

        Yes, this letter is to me.  Sometimes the best conversation you have is with yourself.  First of all, you must forgive yourself and the obstacles that you sometimes encounter.  You are human and we all make mistakes, it is ok, except it and move on.  Channel your self in peace and calming breath and take the time to move into a better place. 

        You are a remarkable woman who has brought four very bright and charming little boys into the world.  The legacy that they will give to others all started with you.  You are a great mother and wife and though sometimes you may feel others don’t notice, they really do.  Embrace the validation when it comes and try to remember it when the dark days of loneliness fall.

        Sheri, you have come so far in your weight loss journey.  Succeed and don’t let anyone make you fall into old patterns.  That includes you falling prey to temptation and baked goods that you have made for others.  You need to pull back and control yourself or you’ll be right back to how you were a year ago.  You have to want to walk away when you need to walk away. 

        Lastly, love yourself for the person you are.  You give to others more than you sometimes should.  If they don’t see the person that you truly are than that is their loss.  You find good in most people and try to get others to like you even if it is at your expense.  Don’t go back for hurt; some people just understand that there are such things as doing a kind deed with no hidden agenda. 

Continue to be the person that you hope your children will be proud of and want to be themselves.  Teach the gifts of being genoerious, kind and loving and then you have done your job as a mother.  But most of all show them that it is ok to make mistakes and life isn’t about a score on a page, or a task well done, but sometimes it is our failures that gives us the best life lesson, forgiveness and perseverance. 

That said, enjoy life, the good and the hard, and know that all will be ok with a little faith and trust.

                                                       

                                                        ~Sheri

Letter 1: Dear Grandma

Dear Grandma,

          When I was deciding who to write my first letter to I wasn’t sure who to begin with.  It only seems fitting that I chose the person who showed me the value of a written letter and who’s letters back to me were always met with fond memories. That being said, you had to be the person I began the challenge with.

          Thank you and I miss you more that I possible ever could convey.   As it is, I am already sitting here crying.  When ever I felt sad or just needed to tell someone something, I could always write to you and I knew that I would get a letter back on white tablet paper with blue ink words of understanding and love.  You never made me feel foolish or dismissed my early teenage thoughts about boyfriends, school or even what was going on in my life at the time.  I don’t think anyone could understand how much those letters meant to me then or now.

          Grandma, I know that I won’t be getting a letter back this time though, but I can’t help but feel that you would if you could.  That somewhere around me you are close by and would be there to support me though these tough times.  I hope you can hear my thoughts and know how much I still need you.  Even if it is only an invisible hug of comfort and strength from up above.

          Please help me to get though what I feel is almost impossible and make my chaos of a life into something calmer.  Give me guidance on how to raise my group of boys and keep my marriage together amongst the struggle.  Some days, I just don’t know if I can do it anymore and just want to crawl back in bed and put the covers over my head.  And today is one of those days.

          There are many things that I know you can hear me saying, but for various reasons can’t be written.  Because sometimes when you say them you can’t take them back.  Give me patience when I am frustrated, help me to feel that this time will pass, that life will go on and things won’t be so hard.  Because today I can’t say that I am fine.  Help me to be the strong woman and stand by my choices and be successful with them. 

          There is so much more I could say but I just don’t know how to say them.  But in the mean time, know that I feel a little bit better knowing that you were and are on my side even if I  can’t actual hear the words spoke aloud but I hear you in my ear whispering that you care and are there.

                                                                   Love Always Your Granddaughter,

                                                                                      Sheri

PS.  Thank you for the organ, that even if it is not in my possession anymore it will forever remain in my heart that you gave it to me.  That and the white poncho with blue pom-poms

                                                         

In an effort to blog more and get some of these thoughts out I am taking on a challenge of 365 letters to different people.  A book was written recently called 365 Thank Yous and ultimately it changed the authors life for the positive.  I'm not sure if all of my letters are going to be a thank you, but I a would like to think majority are written in a positive manner.  Stay tuned for letter 1 later today....

Sept27th.MPG

Rough Times

TagGame: 10 things that you are grateful or proud of....MPG

Embarrassed and Frustrated

You'd honestly think that I would learn how to get over the small stuff by now,but I don't. And to be truthful is it that people don't see when I am getting upset that they'd know to stop. I really am getting tired of hearing Jacob stories and how mischeivious, fresh, naughty he is. He is my son and I know he is all those things and more. So in effort to not add fuel to the fire or give people more ammunition to throw at me I guess we will be staying home of a while. And the kids won't be spending time at the grandparents without me.

I don't know what will get this kid to change so I am at wits end. But at this time I am beyond embarrassed at how things are with him and I am not to to continue to put myself out there to get hurt anymore.