I think its really important that I think very positive that all is going to go well for me. Though I keep thinking what the psych said," You do know you could die,right?" Well, I could also die from being 100lbs overweight too. But, I keep thinking should I put something in writing to my family in case something does go wrong?
Like what would I want to say to my sister who I am not close to right now? I miss you more than you could ever know? Please mend your relationship with mom and dad so they are not alone. Know that I think about you everyday and wish you knew what real happiness is so you'd know whether you have it or not. That is just a smidgen of what I wish I could say but don't know how to say the rest.
Writing to my kids would be the hardest. But I know what I would say to them. How much I love them, wishes for them in the future, why I chose to do this. You get the drift.
To Howard to please find comfort and help where it is given. Mend fences that need to be fixed and don't destroy ones that are built. I think he knows what that means if I said that but not in code.
But let me make this clear, I am doing this for me to live. I am going to make it. I am going to be a success and be the mom I want to be which includes going down slides at Mason field which I can't do now because my ass is too big.
But just in case, I love everyone in my circle of friends and family even the ones that don't really love me.
Going to channel the positive energy and I promise no more depressing blogs.
4 comments:
To our daughter whom we love very much. Our positive thoughts will be with you through your surgery and recovery. Dad and I are there for you and we know how much you look forward at having this behind you so that you can look forward to a healthier lifestyle. Stay focused and positive and with God so present in your life he will be there to keep you strong.
Love
Mom & Dad
Sheri you are one of the best moms & people I know. I wish you the best of luck in this courageous decision that you are making to help you get on the right track to a healthier life style. I know this will be hard, but we are here for you. You have a work-out partner after this is done.
Love you, your husband & beautiful boys.
Kelly Jackson
I'll be praying for you through the whole thing. When is the surgery, anyway??? A person's outlook is a major factor in their recovery, especially when it's a major life change in the offing. You'll make it, and be all the happier for it.
thanks everyone I know who to call when I am stuggling.
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