Very quickly clothes that I bought in the past couple months are starting to be undergrown. I am fine with wearing tops that are too big but I can't be walking out of pants or skirts. So off to the mall I go. Mentally it is hard to wrap my mind around that I can pick something from the misses department and it will fit. Unfortunately I am not in love with the style that is popular at the moment. The empire waist looks cute on skinny girls but looks like a maternity shirt on woman that have actually had children. I realize that my body will always be pouchy without a little plastic surgery help.
So this is my story. How is that I can walkout of two malls and an Old Navy and not find one thing that I like on. Is it that I don't like myself in smaller cothes? Possible. I think the reason is that I am afraid to go in the dressing room and the clothes still be too small. I don't like the mirror that shows all of your lumps and bumps. But on the other hand the lumps and bumps are just me and I am ok.
Needless to say I went to my local Old Navy and got a few tops that I did like and seeing pictures of me in them made realize that I have climbed a huge mountain of weight loss. However the pressure of putting the pictures up makes me pause. Do I want people to be surprised? Am I going to measure up to what they expect. I don't know what is holding me back, but as soon I am get over the hump I will let you know.
1 comment:
Sheri, you look fantastic!!! Other than a few pictures, I have no in person image to compare you to. When my parents saw the pictures of you on here, they said "WOW"! You've come a long way and should be proud of yourself. From what I've heard, plastic surgery after gastric bypass is common. So much weight lost in over stretched skin, it can't bounce back. Some insurance companies will pay for it. If you haven't already looked into it, you should.
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