Great Doctors Appointment

So lets talk about having the lows be the good thing of the day. I went to the doctor last night and the song that came on the radio(when I was stuck at the traffic light before the surgeons office) was The Climb. Now if you look at my blog you know what the song means to me. Gave me the spingles(spine tingles).

I was thinking that they were going to say that I should plan on losing another 15-20 lbs. Nope he told me to stay in the 120's and maintain my weight where I am. That they don't want me under 117. Well, it is going to happen if it is meant to be. Then my actual surgeon saw me in the office when I was leaving and he saw you look fantastic. That was the best compliment he could have given me. This guy is very nice but he is tough with the rules. So now I know that I am doing great.

I hate that I use a number to judge how I feel, but I do and that is my reality. I will never be wearing a bikini due to the permemant last reminder of my obesity which is wrinkly loose skin. But damn that size 6 dress is calling my name.

Have a happy day!
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120's

todays scale visit said 128.2. enough said.


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Getting control back

Stayed with the diet plan today.I followed the rules and am pretty proud of myself

Goodbye to My Friend

Well today is the day that I am saying goodbye to my best friend. I don't like that for the past month and a half they have not said anything nice. I have had my highs and lows and counted on them to there for me. You and I met every morning and sometimes in the evening to have our daily discussion of what was going on. Well, not anymore. I am tired of judging my self worth based on what you had to say.

I am putting my faith on that in a little bit of time you can come back into my life and be kind to me again. But until that time you are out of my life and my thoughts. I am counting on Howard to find a good place to put you until you say the things that I need you to say. So good riddance and though I may miss you every morning, you and I both know you are not good for me on such a constant bases. Goodbye bathroom scale and hello to a happier me.

The Number That I Have Come to Hate

I can't believe I am even saying this because six months ago I couldn't imagine that I would be where I am right now. I am stuck at 131 on the scale. The scale is mocking me with a two pound fluctuation back and forth. I can't wait to see a number in the 120's and that is my next goal. But like my friend says it isn't the number, it is how you feel. I am know I am stronger than I have ever been in my life. Maybe it is that I want it more than ever.

What I Ate For Cinco de Mayo-yummy

While the kids had pancakes for dinner with fresh fruit I made Howie and I fahitas.

I heated up some frozen onion,pepper mix in a tiny bit of oil. After heating it up I took them out and threw in some thinly sliced chicken that was sprinkled in baha seasoning. Once the chicken was done I threw the peppers back in the pan and let it stay warm on the stove.

Howard had his with a flat-out wrap and I had mine naked(no wrap).

I put a dollop of greek yogurt, some lettuce and salsa on top. I totally forgot to take a picture but I thought people might like idea of a mexican high protein meal.